Tuesday, 20 June 2017

What do you think the purpose of life is?

In my opinion the purpose of life is to encourage and inspire people. To worship the Lord wilfully and praise him for the blessings and the things he made and gave us. I think this way is because without God we are nothing.

I used to hate going to church. I feel guilty for telling my friends back then that I always feel sleepy going to church, but as I grew older I learned to appreciate it.

I believe the turning point and realization began when i was in my teens. My brother and I were seemingly enemies. My brother used to bully me mentally, physically and emotionally and there were times I was considering suicide. When I tried to attempt my life I was crying, so done with life and was close to tightening the cord's grip around my neck. Maybe its because I didnt know how to commit suicide but I'd like to think there was a reason why I couldnt. God, Jesus or his angels probably intervened. Whispered to me that my time wasn't up and gave me the will to be stronger.

To this day I'm still alive. My brother was kinder and I know I'm destined to do more things.

What do you think life is about? Share your thoughts below, and Cheers Loves!

P.S. The magic word is Intervention

Thursday, 15 June 2017

Why my children is listening to music decades older than them

In all fairness, I have no children but if I do, my children would be exposed to the types of music I listen to at a young age.

I say this because sometimes, lets be honest, music today can be crap. And when I mean about crap is that they mostly talk about sex, drugs, butts and violence. Some music  are quality with messages don't get me wrong, but its a matter of the environment you grow up in.

As a young girl, my father would play songs as old as I am, maybe even older like Bread or the Beatles or even Simon and Garfunkle. And I was born in the generation where Westlife and Backstreet Boys were a hit! Thank goodness I was a nineties baby, but what people my age don't understand is that I'm not a hopeless romantic who just listens to these old love songs, I love music especially those with a story, those with quality.

People often sexualize songs as if they're simply noise in the background, they're not, and todays music is pretty much those kind of music you question how they are even 'a thing'.

Anyway, my father would always play these type of songs and as I grew older I look for these kinds of songs: slow, mushy, cute, heartfelt, and I began to listen to them on my own.

Its not a surprise that when you are exposed to a songs in your youth you'll appreciate these kinds of songs too, its not that I dont listen to modern songs, I actually do, its just that some people will over generalize it and assume you're a hopeless romantic or tell you in your face that you dont listen to other songs.

Just the other day I was watching this show and this lady told a story of how she used to play these music to her son and as he grew older he began singing them. Today this millenial is a famous hearthrob who enjoys songs older than he is.

In the same respect my brother and I are the same. Because we are  not that much apart in age, we have similar tastes in music despite our contrasting personalities.

In the same manner I would want to encourage my future children to love the kinds of songs older than them yet are quality and inspirational. Of course I wont force them to like it but rather expose it to them, if they acquire a taste for it, then great. If they don't, at least they know what they like. This could be a lesson to christian parents as well.

If you want your children to adopt a healthy musical taste, expose them to songs that promote purity and encourage the faith in the Lord by listening to them as well. I'd do that. I could imagine myself blasting my playlist of Owl City, Hillsong United, and Casting Crowns while I prepare breakfast or while my children are sitting on the counter munching on their cereal.

Just a thought.

- Jen.

The Number 14

I've been doing some practice questions for my praxis and i kept having 14 mistakes. The errors were so consistent that i was convinced that it meant something.

So I did look it up, a page in my bible because I always look at signs that way. I havent read my bible before bed in a few days and I was thinking hey maybe it is a sign and it was bugging me since yesterday since I normally watch Pretty Little Liars at 8pm but it didnt show and this 700 club show decided to show which was religious and I figured.

Anyway page 14, the annoying number that kept bugging me begins with Genesis 17:15 in my bible. This was about Abraham who was 100 years old and God told him he will have a son with Sarah at that age.

When I read it, it clicked. I knew what it meant. It was God's way of saying, I know your frustrated and worried that you might not pass the test but hey look at Abraham, he was 100 years old, he made his promise come true and had a child at an old age! Nothing is impossible with our Father above.

Its things like these that I love to share because I know that God and Jesus truly exist and that they do work in our lives. They wont leave us.

Thanks for reading my rambles. And Ave, Loves!

- Jen

Sunday, 4 June 2017

Dog Mum

A couple of months back my dog gave birth to some pups at the jungle (or at least we call the mass shrubbery surrounding our village a forest). We hadnt seen the pups until recently and there was about five. The numbers shrunk as we do not know where the rest are to three and then eventually two little munchkins.

I must say, dogs truly are smart. The mother dog, knew that she couldnt give birth at our place given the circumstances with our neighbors and also as primitive instincts go, they would hide them away from possible threats.

I was a withness to this, watching her journey from wobbling like an inflated balloon to searching the woods for a nest. After birth she wouldnt come home for days and it worried me whenever it rained. Thankful she found a spot close by, surprisingly under an rusty pick up truck with tin roofs. When she did come back home she'd check up on her pups until one day she just stays outside our home. A few days later we see 3 little pups playing in front of the field, and eventually these pups found their way in front of our homes.

Its really admirable, pups the size of my hands journeying in the middle of the night in front of our house barking and crying for their mother who refuses to milk them sometimes and takes shelter up our patio table.

These pups are human shy, but only after two days of trying to gain their trust, the brown one was already being amiable, licking my fingers and feet.

Dog mom of course is jealous as well as over protective of her pups. Whenever she see's me trying to play with her pup, she would go on my lap and snuggle her muzzle between my arms.

Whenever there is a perceived threat or this one time when i was walking my other dogs, she literally used her arms to protect her pup, pulling it away as a mom would and urge it to move away.

Dogs are precious, they are intelligent, lovable and the perfect companions.

Meanwhile meet Lorelie (light brown) and Mini-Mini (black-brown print), their supposed name until i think of a better one.

Aren't they adorable? Lorelie is actually a boy and the sweets little thing. He acts like a hero and leader and is very protective of his sister. I don't know why I named him Lorelie, it just came to me and he also have no tail like his mum! I just learned that if you cut a dogs tail chances are their pups will inherit that too. Mini-Mini which is a name I got from a Korean Drama called Tomorrow's cantibile is a girl, and like her she is adorable and shy.

Cheers, Love!

- Jen

P.S. the magic word is munchkin.

Saturday, 3 June 2017

Lyrical Interpretation 1: I'm Already There

Song name: I'm Already There
Artist: Lonestar
Cover artists: Westlife

Listen here: I'm Already There - Westlife
View Lyrics Here: I'm Already There - Westlife Lyrics

In my previous blog post which you can read here, I mentioned this song because it talked about being everywhere quote: "I'm the beat of your heart... I'm the moon shinning down..." in the same manner I could interpret that person as God or Jesus existing around us, being the tree that gives us shade or the breeze that cools our prickling skin.

Of course there are other interpretations to this song other than a religious one. The lyrics itself seem to talk about a person who is far from their family and this is normal with people who live or are working abroad. This could also be interpreted as someone reassuring a significant other (family or any other loved one) that even if they are gone (passed into the other life) they would always be there.

I really love this song, especially Westlife and I hope you do get a chance to listen to them. If you did and are a fan? Great! I love to meet friends who love them. Tell me your interpretations below! I would love to hear them.

Cheers, love!

- Jen.

Tuesday, 30 June 2015

With My Eyes Wide Open: The Eye Opener

Before you read any further, you have been warned. The content you are about to read is solely based on factual opinion, it might challenge your beliefs, it might offend you but regardless if you continue, at the end of the day it depends on how you take it in. Everyone is free to believe what they want and I respect that, and everyone has to respect the cultural differences even religious differences as well. Before you continue on, I am warning you again, you choose what you want to believe, if you read but do not wish to continue after finding offense, I respect that, but take note that you are challenging your belief. If you strongly believe in what you believe in, then it goes to show you have a strong faith in what you believe in. It also shows you are also willing to refute or argue in what you believe in. No one is better than the other and take not Jesus said we should love one another, so no hate. I am simply sharing an interesting topic a friend of mine stumbled upon and willingly debated with regardless of our beliefs and are still continually friends respecting what we believe. Finally before you actually read it, I favorably ask you to be open minded, keep a mutual stance and dont make your emotions get the best of you. It is a given that it might possibly offend you or you would find delight in agreeing, but regardless in what side you are taking, take the middle. Think of both sides and think of others and their beliefs, weigh it down and then decide the verdict. You wouldnt know whether you'd like what you hear or hate it. If you continue in the end, you are strong, if not, maybe you should consider how you want to say you are defending yourself, you know you are right so prove me or us wrong and defend what you think is right! In the end, if you do get to the end, only then can you open a debate. We are all open ears to hear your opinion, but strictly no cussing or hate, this is mature talk so don't act immature and reserve your comments for the younger audience in mind.

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I recently watched a taiwanese drama called "Dear Mom" one of my favorite quotes was the continual motivation of the quote, "Tomorrow is another day" this is a perfect quote to link with the bible verse i've been studying in Matthew 6:34 and a perfect example for those who might be discouraged of the things that cross our paths from day to day.

Qi Le, who was close to going bankrupt and troubled of his problem, suddenly bumps into An Ching, young and fresh and motivated to catch her dreams. Although she almost got hot coffee spilled her, this did not discourage her and take note she told him while noting that Qi Le was troubled, that Tomorrow is another day!

Back tract 8 years later, she is in his shoes. Her husband is bankrupt, she is divorced, she has no money on her, and she is in the pedestal with her family if not dependent on her then, putting her under pressure into making them believe she is successful solely to prevent them especially her parents, after all she was the perfect and responsible child right? Qi Le returns her words back to her, gives her help and becomes her friend or most importantly someone wanting to be someone more than a friend to her. He was now the successful one, and you reap what you sow right? Goodness or kindness begets kindness and with good works there is always something good in return.

Qi Le also teaches us, that why must we worry about the past when all is a memory a history left behind, you can't change it unless in some oddity you can turn back time. He also teaches us that, if you continue to linger in the past or worry about tomorrow, it would be a waste of your time and thus you made yourself far more stressed.

Similarly, my AP psychology teacher taught me that why worry about the future when it does not exist? Circumstance can affect what happens, and the future is always changing. What could happen tomorrow for example, can be one of many things, as life is ever changing, you can never predict what would happen in the future unless it comes, therefore why stress over something that, "doesn't exist" or "hasn't happened yet"? To simply put, have you ever heard of the saying, "the past is a memory, the present is a gift, the future is a mystery?"

The bible also tells us not to worry about tomorrow because it too is a secret ready to unfold. It says that why must we worry about tomorrow when today has its own share of worries? If you have worries for today doesn't it seem even more burdensome to worry about another day that hasn't happen yet? Think about the "now"!

The lord encourages us that we must not worry about "tomorrow" when it would "worry about itself" and we should "focus" on "today's worries". In fact if we want to be happy and not be discouraged we should not think of our worries and let our god and savior take care of us, they won't leave us in fact they want us to depend on them! They are our anchors or rocks our strength to hold on to and lean on.

Take note on the other worries he encourages us on: we must not worry about others and how strong their faith is or whatever good they are doing, in parallel we too must not worry about the birds or trees or stray animals roaming by or what to wear or what to eat for they are things that does not require too much thought. The answer or solution to them is simple, grab the first thing you see or go with your gut instinct, what is more important is your faith and your soul.

While you per se, hound or criticize someone to not have the same religion as you or having no strong faith as you as well as probably ridiculing them for the wrong things they've done (like i guiltily do) you must also think of yourself or look at yourself. Why worry about someone else's soul and whether or not their soul is saved when you yourself don't know if you are saved. Do you do what you criticize others for? When you scorn someone for not listening to the worship lesson or for not reading the bible and etc, do you actually do what you scorn others for? Do you actually read the bible and understand it?

Sometimes we are all hypocrites, and sometimes that can be ridiculous to find yourself contradicting yourself and your own beliefs. So lets be honest here. Before you judge someone and others, our heavenly father in heaven and savior tells us: do not worry about these things (dogs or trees) because he has a way of giving them their needs - and this can also be used to refute those who claim "if god can find a way to feed these things or sustain nature why are there children starving around the world?" - My answer to that is simple, "there are kind hearted people like red cross or outreach programs who are trying to help the oppressed or needy, right? When Yolanda happen to the PI in 2014, the whole world helped right? How about those who were in danger during the past massive quakes? Or the relief of Hurricane Katrina and the aftershock in Japan creating havoc in its wake and wrecking a nuclear power plant?" Unless you are one of them, then don't be an imbecile who claims that god does not exist simply because you do not see him physically at work, when you yourself can't even help the poor or the hungry. Unlike you, if you aren't already one of them, there are more humble and kind people who are willing to help, and those people themselves, are THE INSTRUMENTS OF GOD. Don't know what that is? They are those people who god uses to deliver his gift, it is the grace and gift of our as well as jesus's salvation and these days it's rare to see kind hearted people like that.

Before you worry of other things with simple solutions, have you even considered if you yourself have been saved? If your soul is clean and perfect enough, touched and cleansed with the spirit and blood of our savior christ jesus? Have you performed good works even the simplest of things, prayed, read your bible, learned humility and asked for forgiveness? Have you recognized who your father and savior is: a friend and master? Have you faithfully served as a servant to him and followed his commandments? If so, have you become one with christ and the father through spirit and faith? Have you found joy with the good news (gospel/written word/bible) with thorough understanding, without question and with faith of its truth and our savior and father in your heart?

If you assert that, "how would you know the bible is true? It's just a book?", then let me tell you this, the bible itself is true because without your faith built upon christ and the good news/gospel, Jesus told us, that our faith in him is futile, useless. Why build a faith on christ but do not believe what the bible says? Its simply hypocritical.

If you on the other hand, say we came from monkeys and also claim from fishes, how can you defend yourself even more? A theory from fishes and monkeys or even platypuses is quite refutable don't you agree? Maybe even humor-worthy. I'd much more believe that aliens made us than that, and that theory is not that far away!

Yes maybe some part of the bible contradicts itself as well, but that's probably because you read but do not read in context or do not fully understand (I wouldn't say you are imcompetent because that is such a strong word, and if you were a fool, would you even read something so complex and confusing as the bible?), you too could be fooled of false doctrines, you could be pulling out verses from the bible but didn't read the other verses before and after that verse as what I've been reviewed upon by my fair share of read of Michael Shank's book, "Muscle and Shovel", and I couldn't agree more. For all we know you could be quoting Shakespeare or Lancelot or even Vice Ganda when truly it could be someone else! I'm not even making these names up, nor am I as stubborn as the characters in Michael's book or close minded for what I believe in, because hey, my friend told me that aliens might have created us, ans that almost had me when she based it on facts.

Also keep in mind, yes the refutable way to say the bible is questionable, is with all its versions and other doctrine's teachings. The truth is, yes the original bible was a compilation of books or scrolls written and inspired by the word of god. It is not some kind cult conspired by oligarchies to scare the public in theory to exercise control in the civilization with fear of god or a supreme deity. Like the famous quote, "We hold these truths as self evident..." like what our forefathers began to say in its famous document in winning our "inalienable rights of life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness" and that "all men are created equal" quotes from the Declaration of Independence and Constitution.

Yes, we all know it was such a controversy, especially during the time of winning true freedom from whites to colored to men and now also women, it just goes to show that things are not always perfect and thus just proves that laws and documents tend to be flawed or basically not understood in full depth of the creator/author's original intent or meaning, especially with the continual translation of the bible to the point it had possibly lost its meaning, but that doesn't mean it lost its entirety itself. In Revelations it says that anyone who adds or takes away from what is written in the bible let him be damned or cursed. The bible although prone to be flawed when translated from Greek and Hebrew to many other languages, but at the end of the day, it's the closes thing we got from the original, and what other evidence do you monkey (ape)-platypus evolution theorist (evolutionists) got? Yes, it's rocket science my friend, with the technological world advancing and so is the expansion of the field of science, one would claim I'm being old fashioned here, that I am clearly not open minded and that I need to expand my horizon because, "its not two thousand and late" anymore it is the future, in years of time, not only did we accept what was not accustomed in the past like women not having rights, or gay marriage being legal, but we too can probably live in Mars or Pluto in the near future, and that is not that far away.

Yes I may sound like I'm contradicting myself, but drop your criticism for a while and if you claim I am not as open minded and am stubborn, then you should too. Listen to what I have to say first and then argue later because if you really were open minded you would not let your own anger or emotions control you and you would have continued to read until the end. For once be in the neutral side and reflect on both sides, if you think of it, yes both sides have a point, and Science and God is all the only truth we have in explaining why things are so, I am not a hater of science because I find it interesting, but if one claims the bible or religion itself is not perfect, then so can science, because unlike math, math would always have the same answer in the same problem or question while science although there are possibilities too, its not as perfect and everchanging and growing over time.

What people claim "conventional christians" or "traditional believers" to put it simply Old Testament Christians, is a strong label. You dont label people for what they are. Christians or those so called "believers" bare the name of christ, and they do not brag about it (although some of them do) by thinking they are more superior than any other religion, but religion is such a political term.

We (the real faithful christians) or New Testament Christians have a foundation of faith, because without faith in him (Jesus the son and God the father) then what we believe in has to be disregarded as well, ans thats the difference. When people claim that Christians are conservatives with strict rules who are not open minded becsude they believe in the bible and are not as open minded of the idea of "Gay Marriage", you would be surprised. That is partly correct, but not true.

New Testament Christians, or simply, Christians are followers of Christ. They believe Christ is the Immanuel, and that he is the son of God the father, and the bringer of peace. These people are those believers who through belief, were forgiven when Christ was nailed to the cross and carried our sins with him, that it was his blood that cleansed us from our sins. They believe that Christ built the church, he purchased it with his blood, and that he is the head of the church, one church which is his own church, it is the one body with the unity of everyone no matter who or what you are in one house. The bible is the sole foundation of their faith along with God and Christ, and as for those who claim that these people are hypocritical haters, then they are wrong. These people, the New Testament Christians believe that we live in the New Testament, or the current time. We are in the time of Christ, and the fact that, Jesus said he only had two rules when he died in the cross and these rules would take effecr in his church today: love one another and keep my commandments. He simply meant that no matter who you are do not hate one another or treat each other lowly and surely when he said keep his commandments, yes he did implied the 10 commandments: as a guide but because we are under his rule and not Moses, we simply look at it as a guide to perform good to one another and respect God's will, and what he really meant was HIS OWN TEACHINGS ABOUT RIGHTEOUSNESS AND DOING GOOD and like today, unlike Old Testament Christians, no matter what you are whether you are a Servant or one prefering the same gender, he doesnt condemn you, you have an equal chance to go to heaven one day too, and thats the difference between the old and the New. You can't be mistaken by labeling all christians the same, in fact you treat it as a name as if it was your own and it is of one's belief, however sad that they wear the name, it is by how they are misguided, and again it goes back to how without the full extent of understanding the true meaning of God's Word. They claim that Gay marriage is immoral as they quoted in the Old Testament but in the New, it is abolished under Jesus's law. See how people can take out verses but do not read on to its full extent? Even one should know the Prostitute Jesus's disciples judged on Jesus's feet. Yes they knew the Law Of Moses, that prostitution was immoral, but if they do not do it willingly and want to change, who are they to be damned? Even Jesus knew this and said to them that yes it was true as to what the law says, but he will not condemn her, but as for them, if they are sinless, let they have the honor of condemning her, and that they were not sinless and walked away in shame. Jesus too told the prostitute to remove herself from her former doings and do not sin no more, and that is true forgiveness, and what I am pointing out.

The flaw of evolutionists on the other hand is that their theories have yet to keep being proven by "Science" and if memory and proof serves, why repeatedly confuse (and scare) the young in biology classes that we came from primates with big red butts and platypuses with paddle sized beaks? I don't suppose they already have the answer to which came first, "the CHICKEN or the EGG" because for us, the answer is plain and simple, it's evidently found in Genesis Chapter 1. He said (God) "let there be light and it was so", he created the heavens and the earth, from the beasts that roamed the earth to those that glided in the sky and those that dove and swam in the sea WITH JUST HIM SAYING IT AND IT WAS SO. He created Man from the dust in the ground and it breathed life, and woman from this man's limbs. He created the earth for 6 days and rested on the 7th, this explains why we have 7 days a week, now tell us oh wise genies, why say there is 7 days a week for 4 weeks in a month and 365 days in a year since the beginning of time? Wouldn't you be hypocritical in your answer because it was politically borrowed tradition from our ancestors and therefore inspired by the bible? If one can believe in the supernatural why not in the supreme deity? (Unless your reason is because you are narcissistic and you believe you are a god). If you believe in god, then why not put your faith in him and let him help you out of your worries and ask for wisdom and understanding instead of riches like the wise one, King Solomon?

I read something funny online, it was about Einstein. His professor criticized his faith refuting all the things to discourage and weaken his faith, but just because he doesn't answer your prayer, doesn't mean he isn't listening. Maybe it's because you lack faith or lack the heart of gold, god tests the human heart to see how far it can faithfully go through faith.
Einstein put his professor in his place, saying that although he can't see and touch god physically with faith he does exist, and mind you; while that Professor not only got told off and humiliated by a young adult named Albert Einstein, he did not become blessedly famous to be known as the father of relativity for solving E equals mc square as Einstein was. Yes you can search it online or in facebook.

If you are strong in faith, like Job and Jesus despite the trials that discourage you, you would refuse the devil's temptation and by faith in christ tell him (the devil) to vanish from your sight. If you really are like Job, you'd know that even after you lost everything and even for a moment falter and question your faith, that strong foundation of faith, your heart if it really was like gold, no matter how stomped you are by the bad things or trials put onto you, if you endure you will receive the eternal gift of life which is in heaven.

A heart of gold is like one being put to the test, if your heart was really gold set into the various trials, in this case a fireplace, or simply heat, if it really was gold, it wouldn't melt or falter. If it endures and in fact like real gold, heat would very much make it more refined. Simply put, if you can't endure the heat of trials, no matter how painful and you easily let yourself give up, then your foundation of faith is weak. Therefore it is a given and I hate to break it to you, but you can't be deserving of selfishly getting what you ask for, did you even sincerely ask for it? When you pray do you even pray simply for the joy, thanks and praise? Or do you only do it simply just to pray when you are discouraged or in need of something? This is not ridiculing you or trying to offend you my friend, wouldnt that mean you are just selfish but do not wish to thank him for everything he has given you or blessed you with, since day one? While believing in god and Christ you WILL FACE TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS. You are in a constant war between Good and Evil, and how you react in these trials and tribulations is what the devil is eager to see, he wants you to squirm and writhe! He wants you to curse god for your belief and unanswered prayers, and this discouragement is how god tests you.

Yes, it is a fact that God is like feeding you to a lion when you are in a pinch, but that doesnt mean he isnt there, remember the story of the young David? How about Daniel? Whenever David was in a pinch God was there, and when he bravely challenged the giant Philistine Goliath, he claimed that why should he be scared when God is in his side? And with his experience of God putting him in a pinch, was all that experience not worth it? That proves the saying, no pain, no gain. That said, God and Jesus is our pillar of strength, and we bear the protection through our shield or armor of faith.

If you are easily discouraged then the devil wins, after all: the "easy way out" and the human desire of "wanting things less painful" is what the devil uses to tempt you with. And God allows him to, to see if you really are strong in faith. If you, a fellow with a heart of gold endures and disregards this discouragement by the devil however, with god, there is nothing to fear (also nothing is impossible) because he is by your side and that fact alone means you win. God is JUST (fair) and he wants to see whether "not being in your side" for a moment would prove your true strong faith in him and when he does, that is when he will help you win.

Who said that believing in him was easy? If it was, everyone should have believed and if faith made you rich you'd probably billionaires by now, rich in faith and in money. But that is not the case, everyone can also believe but not truly believe. Its like saying something but not really meaning it, don't you agree? And that is the biggest trial we are constantly facing everyday. Having faith but not truly believing in his grace is like worshipping the dead and god does not want dead worshippers, that is why he puts you to the test. He wants to see us loving him and praising him and of course serving him, with all our hearts, mind, and soul. He wants us to have an active faith, one that is continually growing with our spirit. He wants us to accept him as our father, master, friend, and savior like Christ Jesus. I am not trying to spread evangelism here (or maybe I am) nor am I trying to convert anyone or trying to get anyone to go to my church although that's part of my mission but not by force or manipulation, its up to you to decide what to do and at the end of the day, we are all simply the children of our heavenly father and like my preacher and fellow brethren and sisters, become a source of inspiration to lead people back to him as the many instruments of god.

You do not have to know every single verse, although that would have arguably made my points stronger. The truth is I can't remember the direct verses in the bible references and take note I only quoted or inserted one verse. A true follower knowledgeable of the gospel would know the deep meaning of these verses as they hold it in their hearts as something most precious. I may not remember the exact verse but i know where to start from and look and what it means because I studied it from someone before and I hold it self evident that through faith I know that I should follow the path (and study the word daily for a stronger faith) that is only or solely right and by the will of the lord.


Thursday, 9 April 2015

"Pray Persistently" a Joyce Meyer Daily Devotional



So I have this friend whose been loosing faith lately in god. After she found out her mother was battling an ugly illness, she'd began to doubt the presence of god. To simply put, I'm the instrument of god who wants her to believe in him once more, to believe and acknowledge and to rejoice at the fact that he does exist, that he is working in our lives, and that he put these "tests" or "obstacles" in our lives to test how far we would trust him and how strong our faith really is for him. I believe prayer is one of the strongest connection we have to be able to communicate with god. My preacher even said that, in prayer, we are able to talk to him, and it must be a very enjoyable feeling. I also believe that even if we don't hear him talking back to us, he is still listening, and working in his most graceful ways to give to us all the things we ask. 

So I persuaded my friend, telling her that, she must not loose faith in god. He does exist, and that I believe since I've, take it from my experience, have seen him working in my life, even if I can't physically see it myself but rather spiritually. God is not looking for someone who is strong, he is in fact, looking for someone who is weak. He wants us to accept him in our lives, and depend on him to heal us from hurt, to depend on him for strength, and most of all, deliver us from our fears so that we may be victorious and overcome them. However, backtracking to myself, just because I said that god is not looking for someone strong, that is not entirely true. By "not someone who is strong", I mean, someone who can admit that they are just human, that they make mistakes, that they can't do everything alone. He however wants you to also be strong, and by strong, I mean "strong in faith". The weakest person who admits their weakness and depends on god for strength, is the strongest person as I see it. Isn't it a exciting to think that we  are invincible if we get our strength from god and not just by our own personal strength? A weak strength however, is someone who might call themselves as someone who is strong, they take on every challenge life throws at them, but at the end of the day, is their strength strong enough to overcome the challenges that god would throw at them? 

A test of faith, and I will go deeper in this in my next post, is to see, if we have a true heart of gold, that even if it is stashed in the fire, for a while, it would not molten but rather, harden, and it would be worth more for being able to endure. Similarly, if one who is given an obstacle by god himself, a person with a true heart of gold would endure. No matter how painful his trial or disposition, whether he looses everything including his loved ones like Job or his sight like Saul, at the end of the day, faith in God and his son Christ is key. He even says in revelations (to the elect) when the Jews were being persecuted and leading to the destruction of Jerusalem that, we would be persecuted for believing in him, we would be trampled/threaded on but wait for a while, he will collect all these innocent souls and when it is complete he would unleash his total revenge, which was the total destruction of Jerusalem. And keep in mind that John was writing this and in his vision, the Spirit of God told him to write, he saw a throne and surrounding this thrown were the 24 elders, the 12 apostles and 12 the new testament prophets including his elect, and they had rejoiced around his throne with his Son, the lamb, Jesus Christ who delivered us from our sins. 

True faith, a strong faith, is fighting for what you believe and never once faltering from that belief, no matter what trials god throws at you, it's a test to see if you really deserve the crown of life, if you really deserve the name as his child, and deserve to stand by his side in the eternal house he build for us in heaven, along with his son Jesus and eating with them in the same table, and rejoicing with our beloved brothers and sisters and angels. 

Now we are back to how all of this began, although I hadn't thought of all these when I was talking to her, I'm glad I have thought of it now to share. Although I've said some of these to my friend, I believe I hadn't made my position clear enough. She is still doubtful, and I always tell her that even if she is still doubting, continue to pray. And even if I know she might forget or that she might not take my advice seriously, as for me, I never forget to add her and her mother in my prayer. I pray for the recovery of her mother so that she could see that god is indeed working in their lives, and so that her faith may be restored once more, and I also pray that she may return under his wing, to believe in him once again, and to continue to trust in him.

I believe that God has a purpose for us, and he doesn't leave us to deal with these problems for no reason. Think of it as a script, he is the writer of our life story. From the beginning he knew us, he knew what we would do all the sins and good things we would do as well as he knows what we are thinking and what truly lies in our hearts. He knows our desires, and he knows what we would do and decisions we would make before we make it. My friend told me if he loves us why would he make us get hurt? Why wouldn't he make it so that we don't make mistakes?

My answer to that is that, think of it as learning something for the first time, or riding a bike and falling. We have to experience pain and hurt and falling to know to how to go back again, to know what to do and not to do. We as humans have this mindset to persevere, to try and try again until we succeed. We are thirsty to attain triumph, and so after receiving many scars from the fall, we finally learn to stand up and try again, and eventually master and riding the bike of life. Also, if god knew us, why didn't he stop all the bad things that are happening? Simply because, its all in the balance. Without the bad things coexisting with what is good, how will we learn from our mistakes? If he made us perfectly perfect, what is the point of it all? We would be living a dull life without color or worst, we would be like emotionless robots too perfect and lifeless. 

Jesus is namely believed to be absolutely perfect, he is the lamb spotless and without blemish, and that is why he was the greatest sacrifice leading to the remission of our sins, because through his blood, without it, we wouldn't be saved. Our sins wont be washed, and to this day we wouldn't know that God is just and that even with his son he had not spared for the account of many. Jesus serves as an epitome of goodness, even if he had gone through all that pain just to die for us, even after death he is still the victor, the light that outshines darkness, the goodness that envelops darkness, and brings everything into light. 

Therefore, If we don't get heart broken at least once or twice in our lives, how else would we know that the person whom we thought we loved or thought loved us, was in actuality not the one destined for us? How else would we learn to not get hurt again? In Genesis as an example, god had punished Cain. He knew that Cain would kill his brother Abel, and instead of killing him as the saying "an eye for an eye" goes, he had let him walk on earth, cursed, to remind us that God is just, and that, evil never prevails, which is a lesson for all sinners, that you too can also be forgiven.

Heed caution my fellow bloggers and readers I do not own the following devotional content. These words are solely from Joyce Meyer's devotional and could be found in the bible app. I re-posted the content because I believe that many are missing out on these devotionals and recommend that if you are a proud child of god, please, feel free to join the world of rejoicing brothers and sisters in downloading the free app.

Joyce Meyer said in her daily devotional content "Pray Persistently" 

About twenty years ago, this next sentence changed my life: "You do not have because you do not ask God." This short verse opened a door for me to discover the life-changing power of persistent prayer. At that time in my life, I was stressed out about a lot of different things. I was trying to make my ministry grow, trying to make my husband do this or that, trying to make my kids act a certain way, trying to make other people do the things I wanted, trying to basically do absolutely everything on my own. As you can probably guess, it wasn't working! As a burned-out, frustrated young Christian, I realized one day that living in my own strength was useless. I needed to take my problems to God. In other words, I needed to pray more! When we understand God's love for us and His plan for us, then we can begin to realize the doors that He wants to open for us. But we'll only realize these things when we're constantly talking with Him, listening to His voice, and growing deeper in our relationship with Him. In Matthew 7:7 (AMP), Jesus tells us, "Keep on asking and it will be given you; keep on seeking and you will find; keep on knocking [reverently] and [the door] will be opened to you." So many times, when we reach the end of our rope, we turn to prayer, but when our prayers are not instantly answered, we give up. Today, I want to encourage you to not only pray, but to pray persistently. Don't stress out trying to make things happen on your own. Give it all to God as you pray. Remember, He promises that when we seek Him, we will find Him. Let's pray and seek Him with all our hearts. 

She even blessed us with a prayer starter :)

 Prayer Starter: God, remind me to bring my problems to You. I'm tired of living in my own strength. I need Your guidance and Your direction. As I seek You daily, I will put my trust in You.

Wednesday, 8 April 2015

"Complaining is a sin" A devotional daily reading by Joyce Meyer

Heed caution my fellow bloggers and readers I do not own the following devotional content. These words are solely from Joyce Meyer's devotional and could be found in the bible app. I re-posted the content because I believe that many are missing out on these devotionals and recommend that if you are a proud child of god, please, feel free to join the world of rejoicing brothers and sisters in downloading the free app.

Joyce Meyer said in her daily devotional content "Complaining is a sin",


In Ephesians 4:29, the apostle Paul instructs us not to use any foul or polluting language. At one time, I didn't realize that this included complaining, but I have since learned that murmuring and complaining pollute our lives. 

Plain and simple, complaining is a sin! It causes many people a great deal of problems in their lives and destroys the joy of anyone listening. 

We need to ask ourselves, how quick are we to become impatient and begin to complain when stuck in traffic or while waiting in checkout lanes in grocery stores or department stores? How quick are we to spot and point out all the faults of our friends or family members? Do we complain about our job when we should be thanking God that we have one? 

The best antidote for complaining is thanksgiving. Truly thankful people do not complain. They are too busy being grateful for all the good things they have that they have no time to notice the things they could complain about. 

The Bible says that we are to enter God's courts with praise and thanksgiving. You and I need to make it a daily goal to live a life of thanksgiving. Let's be as positive and grateful as possible. 

Try going to bed at night pondering everything you have to be thankful for. Let it be the first thing you do in the morning. Thank God for "little" things or things you might normally take for granted: a parking place, waking up in time for work, a meal, your family... Don't get discouraged when you fail, but don't throw in the towel and quit either. Keep at it until you have developed new habits and you are living with an attitude of gratitude. 

Be generous with your gratitude. It will sweeten your relationship with the Lord. 

She also gives us a prayer starter:

Prayer Starter: God, I want to live with an attitude of gratitude, starting right now! I thank you so much for loving me and for blessing me. Help me see the positive things in life and to thank You for them.



And therefore, my fellow faithful believers of God and his beloved son Jesus Christ, why must we be indeed complaining when we should be thankful for all we have? He gives us everything, and every little thing we have no matter how small, they are all a blessing and sometimes we might not come to know it, they are a hidden blessing, and he is giving us a beautiful message: that he is indeed working in our lives, existing, and continuing to listen to our prayers, love us despite our sins, and he would continue to forgive us if we ask for forgiveness.

Thursday, 19 March 2015

The beauty in the art of war

What is there to be fond of in war, where gore and death is always kept at bay. Where death who rides a black stallion reaps the souls that had fallen, and hurl them into the fiery furnace of hell or in brighter sense, the soft tissue embodiment that make up our heavenly clouds. The world is not perfect, and so without an external force us humans make upon ourselves, we live a monstrosity without knowledge of what is good and bad. 
The beauty in the art of war, is that quarrels and disputes are inevitable, having different views and opinions just mean that we are human. In the Charles Darwin's survival to the fittest, disputes are resolved through the art of fighting, which means that whoever wins, is pronounced the strongest, and to simply put, the reigning champion has the final say in what decision is made towards the conflict. 
The population as another example shows that birthrates are increasingly higher than the death rates in the past decade. Without the handful of sacrifices be it our proud men and women putting their lives on the line to protect our forefront or simply those who "was there at the wrong time" as a result of an unpredictable calamity  it won't be long until mankind rapidly doubles and fills up the entire earth until nothing is left but the vast expanse of the sea. 
In another light, there are many references of war in the bible. The fact that these people were driven by the hand of god to fight for their views especially for good doesn't mean that goodness always triumph. In battles and wars, there would always be a 50 percent chance of success and failure, sometimes he proves to not be there at all, but that is because he works behind the scenes, testing his soldiers in their faith, and like what he did to his chosen people, Israel, especially in the old testament, he had let them fall in the hands of their enemies, simply because they were worshiping other gods or committing fornication.
The fact that war symbolizes the art of fighting for power and justifying our own opinions, proves that war although it's unthinkable and undesirable, it is constantly needed to resolve many of the various conflicting views existing amongst mankind, and sometimes exist to prove self worth, or simply ease the human ego.

Monday, 16 March 2015

The little thing called effort

I've never fallen for a guy this hard before. In fact there is a huge difference between liking a guy for 5 years and wrecking your life over a boy who you don't even know express the same mutual feelings as you. Isn't it the same thing you ask? No of course not, of course they both mean that I've wasted my time over two different guys, but there is in fact a huge difference between the two.

The guy I like for 5 years, is something i'd label as puppy love, a small little crush, maybe even a passing fancy. In fact it wouldn't be considered love or liking if I immediately forgot about him the moment the second guy came along. I mean sure, all the signs are there, he makes me nervous, blush, makes me smile goofily, the fact that I can't even look at him straight in the eye or even the fact that I get butterflies in my stomach whenever I see him. The fact that these signs seems so beautiful and typical for all the young girls in love, it just means that its a little crush all young girls would feel, sometimes it might even be part of the cruel world's little game called, disillusioned fantasy. Yes I said it, aren't we all admittedly disillusion for thinking we are in love with someone just because we express these symptoms? I don't know it might be because I'm a Scorpio, and Scorpio's easily tend to have a change of heart once they feel like they are not safe, maybe even assume that it's just a passing fancy. I mean I tend to crush a lot on guys, but they aren't as serious, and that's the disadvantages in having a scorpio as a lover. We might loose interest easily, we might have other flings, we might be possessive, and we might be unpredictable, but when we do find someone that we call "the love of our lives" we are sure as hell one of the most loyal partners you could ever have. We might easily shift emotional wise, but if we really do love you, we wont fail to show it, we'll give you everything, we'll give up everything in the name of love. Although I might take to account and acknowledged the fact that this guy I liked was one of my first loves, or at least the first guy I was loyally liking from a far for 5 years, the other guy is just as bad as it gets.

Guy number two, is what i'd label as someone who'd fall in the category in love and loved. I might have been in denial whenever my friends teased me, but I came to realize many things about the true meaning of love. The thing about true love and the real world reality is that, it can both be bittersweet and cruel. You might be like the next guy ranting about how life can be cruel, and you can also be like me and other girls whose crying their eyes out over a stupid boy.

So the thing about guy number two, the moment he walked into my life, I've immediately thrown away all the emotions I wasted for the first guy, and regretful as I am, I don't even know how I should give my heart to anyone else. Unlike the first guy, this guy made me feel more intense emotions, I've never even cried over a guy before, and surely, I've never felt so damn nervous in front of the guy I like (although I am always nervous period in front of any guy) but he is something different, he's the first guy I actually made an effort to try to get close to, awkward as I was, and stupid too. I always seem to say the stupidest thing, and that's what seems like the minus in my brownie points, I mean I don't intend to say something stupid, it just happens that it's always being interpreted the wrong way. I'm always awkward in front of him and it's obvious in my body language, I think it's also my fault for seeming unapproachable because i'm the complete opposite from how he perceives me personally and how I act in front of my friends. He's the first guy I ever felt so jealous whenever he talks ever so comfortably with his girl friends, and it bugs me how I can't easily do that or actually start as friends with him. He is also the first person who can make me feel all sorts of emotions in one occasion: fear, anger, nervous, happy... but that's normal for anyone. He is also the first person I confessed to.

Yes, I confessed to the idiot, or at least I did, not personally but online. He might have thought it was either a dare or just me saying random things again, which I often do, and our first small talk online wasn't the most normal ones as you can see. We still can't talk to each other personally, or at least I can't which probably confuses him because I just seem so unapproachable around him. The first time I even tried to message him, my heart was thumping so hard and I was mentally debating whether or not I should press the button. I did, and he replied days later, saying it wasn't expected because (I mean who would want a message from someone awkwardly apologizing the whole time and saying that it was a dare?) Yes I screwed up, and that's why I made many efforts to try to change things between us. I followed my friends advice to try to get to know him, start by asking his interests, I did and he didn't reply. I think that was the turning point in my feelings, I vowed to hate him or at least try to stop having feelings for him. I even had this stage of depression and for the first time actually cried over a guy. Comes his birthday and although I may sound desperate, just be friendly and mature about it I messaged him again, and luckily this gave me some brownie points because I said something cute and cheesy noting that his birthday was in Christmas and surprisingly enough he was named after our savior. Yes, he replied, and I felt that we had a connection, he was actually open to tell me a lot of stuff, how he is not good with people like me, how he can only be himself around friends.... then of course he tried to return the conversation, asking me how was my day, like any typical conversation. The conversation progressed sweetly, and ended with see you around. Comes New year, haven't you notice that I'm just doing this at my convenience? Messaging him in holidays? i'm the type of person who just says the most weirdest things, but that's because i'm a bubbly person. So I messaged him past new years eve, saying happy end of the year. again its my fault for saying the most stupidest things, because it would have implied happy end of the world, but I quickly corrected that saying, Happy new year with a cute dog sticker.

Ouch to me when I didn't get a reply. Scorpio's are known for holding a grudge and I hated him for ignoring all my effort. If he didn't like me or found me annoying, at least tell me in my face, hell block me or maybe even un-friend me on Facebook, but he didn't. I always thought that he replied all those time just because he found me pitiful and desperate and probably obliged to reply, it was even obvious on how he answered, seemingly disinterested, and here I was wasting my life and emotions on a guy I don't even know where I stand.

I vowed not to like him, but cruelly  enough, it just gets worst. He's my classmate in one of our class, he even sits in front of me everyday, and I'm pretty surprised he's not one bit awkward about it. He hangs out by the tree across from where my friends and I hang out in break, and I'd see him everyday at some point too, even where I hang out after school.

Recently I've been invited to a friend's eighteen birthday and surprisingly enough he was invited too, for the first time i've seen him in a sturdy polo, and damn, I believe that's when I just fell so hard again. Ever since then, I became even more awkward around him, and my feelings goes beyond me to the point when I just can't focus anymore. I'm always thinking about him whenever I do my work, and even in church morning worship. It gets even annoying when I suddenly think of him in our prayers and I just want it all to stop. I want to stop liking him, I want to stop falling for him, I just want to stop thinking of him because honestly, he's messing with my head. He's messing with my emotions, and he's not making me focus. I'm almost graduating, I have a ton of work to do, and he's just adding more to my stress.

My friend asked me if I loved him, I always said that I wouldn't say I love him. At first I was okay with just liking any guy, I don't expect anyone to like me back or at least if they did and asked me out, I wouldn't know how to react. I don't even know how i'd react because I've never been in a relationship before, and being in one would be a hassle, it would just hinder me from my studies, but feelings can't be tamed, and me falling hard for this guy is beyond my control. When my friend ask me again, I admit that I think I love him, and that's the true meaning of love. You have to face the feelings and troubles there is to it, you have to understand that it's not all butterflies and sunshine, that at some point its not a happily ever after, or a forever, or fantasy or what we all grew up thinking it would be.

But if loving someone meant that I had to go through all of this, why must I then, harbor these feelings to such a guy? Because that's part of life, it might not be a perfect love story, but god is working behind the scenes perfecting a beautiful one for me. I might be hurting now, confused of my feelings, but that's all part of his plan, he wants me to be strong, he want's me to learn to be patient, to learn and understand, to think about others before being selfish and thinking of myself, and that I believe is true love.

So where do I go on from here? The answer is, I really don't know. I was okay liking him, not expecting him to like me back. The thing is, that I should take into account if he really is worth it, well is he?

If a girl cries over a guy, he's probably not worth it, but to her he probably was, or at least that means that she was stupid enough to give all her heart to someone who was blind to see it. For me, a guy would have been worth it, if he had the balls to make me feel like I am special, to actually put an effort to getting to know me no matter how he claims to be so shy. A guy who is serious about you would make an effort, and as I can see, he doesn't even come close to having balls into doing it. It just prove to me and all of those who said it that, he was just not worth it, that I was just wasting my time on him. The thing is we are both shy and not good with people, and I went beyond that into actually trying to make an effort to be close to him even from different means, I might be good up close and personal, but at least I made an effort. He on the other hand didn't, which means he probably didn't have the same mutual feelings from the beginning. But then, aren't we all victims of the crazy little thing called love? Our flaws and mistakes and experiences are part of life, if we are hurting and are prone to making mistakes, it just means we are human.